This is so-not-me

I don't know what exactly happened but "me" is not very familiar with herself anymore. I try rationalize my loss of motivation and inspiration to the fact that its been 3 years in University and about time I got sick of it.

Where have I gone? How have I gone when the only thing that defined me was those above. I still do have goals in life on the bright side, but what is the point of that when the urge that pushed me all this years suddenly went away.

"I am not me" perhaps is a short phase, a result of being multi-shocked or perhaps the beginning of my next chapter. Though with current symptoms chances of a chapter in failure is pretty high. Perhaps it's time to fail, to feel defeated and to feel the need to stand up again.

I guess these days are consumed with thinking, who knows perhaps that's what I need after-all. A long time away to contemplate and figure it out. Figure everything out.

( رحم الله امرأً عرف قدر نفسه )